[Ward: Private]
It seems like I can't stop thinking of Hugh and Morag. I don't presume to know what his mediocre reasons were for hurting her- it's that hurt that keeps drawing my focus. She's forgiven him, of course- I shouldn't have expected her to do anything else- and, by all rights, it should be out of my head by now.
What if I did that to Charlotte? If I hurt her that way? Made her doubt me, or us? What if I already have?
I know she's it for me. I've known that for a long while. I suppose it's been my pride in the way- well, pride and fear. Pride, in knowing that she was with someone else longer than she's been with me, but maybe that doesn't matter. It shouldn't matter, at least. Fear, well, in worrying that she might be holding out for something- someone- better. She says she isn't, and I want to believe her. Maybe a ring on her finger wouldn't take away that fear, but- I don't think it would hurt, either.
I want her to be my wife. That's what matters more than any of the rest of this.
Now what do I do?
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[Ward: Alison]
Could we meet up sometime soon? Coffee or drinks or something. And- er- don't tell Charlotte, please. Because that doesn't make this sound dodgy at all, Eddie, well done.
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